i live for You;

beamms. a few hours of hard work. never mind if it doesnt meet the cut, or if they want another design. i like this one all the same. hahahah.

watched pirates yesterday, (WARNING: SPOILER) must say that it was quite a disappointment. even ghost rider was a better film, though its plot is almost completely unrealistic. think the newspaper reviews were rather accurate this time (at last) when they said the plot was weak and everyone's acting was mediocre, save for geoffrey rush. sparrow is as dumdum as ever, with his silly antics. its interesting how he's such a lovable character, despite his obnoxiousness, non-existent conscience and his great love - for himself. and well, the list of flaws are endless. knightley wasnt doing well either, her little speech (which reminded me of someone impersonating aragorn in lotr and failing miserably) was the only thing that redeemed her performance, i suppose. and she looked plain weird/out of place clad in that pirate king garb. zz. guess what. singapore is portrayed as a little village in which all people do is sit around in pools of water with a leader that screams "more steam!" every five seconds. classic. all in all, its quite a disappointment. z. expected more from them than that. gimme the lord of the rings trilogy anytime.

the holidays are finally here ! and yet it feels like anything but that. so many things to clear. havent really gotten down to anything at all. is it my lack of interest, of ability, or plain laziness ? wouldnt be surprised if its the latter.


had my last appointment with ben today. he made me run on the treadmill, kept increasing the speed while expecting me to continue chitchat with him. hah. made a new friend today ! cecilia. (: sigh. heard from ben that she's got kidney failure, along with an assortment of other ailments, mostly caused by hypertension. its rather heartwrenching, to hear her story from ben, about how she's been waiting for a kidney donor for ten whole years. keeping that in mind, she's probably spent that ten years in dialysis. on impulse, i thought of asking him if i could be eligible, but didnt get around to it. dont really remember what he was saying at that point, had been processing the horrid thought of having to go through dialysis for ten years running, and if she doesnt get a donor, for the rest of her life. she touched and amazed me with her cheerfulness, making jokes and laughing as if she were very much at ease and happy with her life. admire her for her strength, and (possibly) positive outlook on life, though the cheerfulness may be a facade to hide her pain.

okay i just went to read up about it. minimum age for a living donor transplant is 21. thats like so old. rah. its okay. will pray hard for her to get a donor soon.

it irks me that i'm unable to take photos of the stars in the sky, guess its mostly cuz of the quality of my phone's camera. i especially like the star You sent to keep me company today. walking home alone in the dark wasnt so bad after all.

dental, choir concert, a week of lessons, matthew cg, seminar at church, emily's birthday. hahah. so many things ! they should find another meaning for holidays. or maybe, find another word to replace it. one that has a more accurate meaning.

we make mistakes, so that we wont repeat them. at least, thats what theyre there for. looks like it isnt working on me, though.

its not about pride, or apology anymore. apology may mean nothing to me, but i know its probably the opposite to everyone.

got a song up ! to love somebody by jordin sparks. the latest american idol, for the misinformed.