meant for so much more -

greed ? credit to ser.

the devil's poison comes in all sorts of tantalizing packages, but all of them have the same, ugly interior. its really terrifying how i almost fell for it, how easily it led me away. then i realise how easy it is to slip. well, blaming it on human nature is one thing, but lack of faith and depth is another. perhaps, human error is just an excuse? because we're in control of it. we can prevent ourselves from making certain choices, if only we steel ourselves against our own sinful nature and the devilish whispers that sometimes surface in our hearts, instead of letting the knowledge of our own sinful nature be like an excuse put on stand-by, one that will hopefully let us slide when we do.. wrong stuff.

was excited for service today, and it was so so good. never been shortchanged. beamm.

thank God cg is on tuesday this week ! else i'll probably pon exco meeting for it. between responsibility and my own priorities.. damn.

realise i'll still be rather tied down by council work in june. its quite an outrage, since i'm supposed to be stepped down, retired and useless by then. okay not useless, but well you get my drift. i guess its kinda like my responsibility since qinhui isnt around to guide them, but i think my duty has been stretched, and stretching it that way is really too much. i admit, i'm not noble enough to keep serving the council even after ive stepped down, not selfless enough, not passionate enough, whatever. i dont see a purpose in doing so, seriously. if the school wants to make such a drastic change in the council, then they should totally wean the new batch off the seniors and start entirely anew. well that'd be akin to making them fend for themselves and maybe struggle a little, but that'd do them some good. things cant be given to them so readily, else how will they ever learn?

alright i'm just a complainy old-timer who's getting sick of getting messages/called up and told that ive got a new project on my hands that i shouldnt even know about. thats what the new batch is for, you know.

i'm making progress. marginal, but progress nonetheless. glad. faith does amazing things. really amazing things.

have faith ! well if you already do, have more.