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haha my adorable cg. the cute little paper figurine is by robert. pleasantly surprising. laughs. miss them loads ! ):

wrote a really long entry in my diary last night. felt great ! havent taken the trouble to do that in a long time. its good, too. helps me to think better. and organise my thoughts more clearly.

got back more results today, dont think my l1r5 is going to be pretty. some subjects have improved, while others did much worse than i'd expected. sigh. improved in my weaker subjects but deproved in my supposedly stronger ones. how weird. only english holds i guess. thank God for that. (:

sat through another tiring exco meeting today. was rather brain-draining, considering we'd to brainstorm for an entire camp proposal with only four heads. and one who left halfway. well, the team isnt the most competent or desirable one, but i like the feeling of planning events all over again. its rather indescribable, the way it felt back in sec2 when i planned my first event, when my batchmates and i were bubbling over with excitement and whatnot.

well things went downhill after that, since dorcas& wanleng got out and well, the rest is history ! hopefully this entirely new beginning will spell a greater council for the years to come.

reading what happens when women walk in faith by lysa terkeurst. think her name is rather.. interesting. its good so far ! wna borrow a purpose-driven life soon. z.

oh. forgot to add something about council.
the candidates made their campaign speeches today. was extremely disappointing, to put it mildly. there's the usual guys, leon& zunsiong, trying to be funny and making stupid comments to make people remember them. thats not the worst. we get that every year. its disheartening to hear the year3 batch beating up the council's image right in front of the student population. extremely, extremely disheartening. was most.. should i say, put off by ariel's speech. she said, being in council for a year widened her perspectives, and it made her realise how utterly wrong her first impression of the council was. cant really remember exactly what she said, but she was definitely insinuating that the council was a place she never wanted to step into again. cant deny that she's definitely had her share of hard times, being under changlok, with teachers and students watching to see if she falls. stressful, yes. but its no excuse to beat up the council's image in front of the school. its not as if we owe her something. disappointed in her. she hasnt even done much for the council to begin with, what gives her the right to say such things? her red insignias? please, the red insignias dont signify any special right or privilege. call it a burden, a responsibility, whatever. preferential treatment? i seriously doubt so.

alright enough about council. will try to make my presence in sc camp a significant one. maybe not significant, but impactful, rather. one of the last things i can do for the council i guess !

got many letters to write, letters to reply. woah. kinda lazy to begin, cuz they'll probably end up being thousand word long essays. makes face.

the leg hurts like a bitch. and ben said its supposed to be okay already. kicks imaginary ben.

sing to me of the plans that You have for me over again.