all i want, all i need.

reminiscence about the good old times. haha.

finally back to blog ! exams been rather traumatising, especially today. they dont go testing your memory power for geography anymore - regurgitation will earn you a rather demoralising mark. that was rather bad news for us, and at a rather bad timing too, since we only got to know that when we saw the questions. but well its over ! just rather upset that i couldnt finish the paper though i knew i definitely could have. and also cuz its a subject i'm supposed to include in my l1r5. sigh. well, essentially i probably flopped chinese as well, was falling asleep once the paper started. mustve been cuz i missed my dose of caffeine. and the lack of sleep. groan. alright enough complaining.

its nice to know, that such a sacrifice is worth it. (: every second.

i realise, that in such trying times, Your presence is even more evident. i shiver at the thought of how distressing it must be, to hear someone say "God, where are You when i need You most?" when Youve never left their side.

one of the chinese comprehension passages struck me today. it was about loss, and how loss doesnt have to carry a negative connotation. okay its expressed more easily in chinese, but anyhow. it really got me thinking, about how we always view loss as something negative - i mean hey if i throw you the word loss you'll probably think about losing something dear, or something along that line. but losing something doesnt necessarily equate to an actual loss. you may lose something, someone. but in actual fact, you dont lose anything, because there was nothing to lose in the first place. or lets put it this way - losing something could be viewed as making way for something new, something better. and i realise how much sense that makes, though all of us never seem to realise it cuz we're too busy wallowing in self-pity to, and we only do when the good thing comes strolling along or when we force ourselves to be optimistic about that loss.

well, this topic is rather dear, cuz i seem to have lost something really really important to me lately. perhaps its not loss - but if things go on this way it will be. perhaps there are other reasons - i see them as well. but nothing's certain, and i know things wont fall back into place once this stressful period is over. sigh. i'll pray. for you. and me. and us. i dont know if you feel the loss, but i do. and it goes really deep.

my beautiful Saviour.