reclaim the promises.
i'm praying for the day, when we'll be eating instant noodles with egg and chilli at the same time again.
scratch the last entry.
i realised many things today. turns out i'm bursting my own bubble.
it sucks when everyone else is bringing visitors and youre not. alright let me rephrase that. it sucks when everyone else is trying their best to bring their visitors and youre not. it did cross my mind, but i pushed it away. and then i was reminded again on thursday, when seok called. it struck another raw nerve, but then again i dodged the spirit's calling. i only began to face the problem when you spoke to me about it. to remind me. i cant say its not my fault. i cant say, no i was too busy. yes i was busy. but then again, everyone is busy. all the time. so is God. but He never is too busy for us. for the seemingly trivial prayers, teeny requests for a seat on the bus or healing for a headache. what i can say, is that ive realised how wrong this whole thing has been.
i got too carried away with my own dreams, my own aspirations, those that i'd never gotten divine approval for. and for the past week, it has been all about me, me and more me. how could ive forgotten, that the kingdom comes first ? perhaps i hadnt forgotten, but i'd left it so far in the back of my head that it didnt seem so important anymore.
and then i thought of my promises during camp. the visions people told me about. today's sermon. and the prophecies. when God gives His promises, theyre considered done. i know it'll come true. if i dont do anything about it, it doesnt mean that it wont, only that it'll be delayed, that this task would be given to someone else to fulfill.
i dont know where the fire has gone, or whether it has truly been smothered. what i know, is that i shouldnt be so obssessed with going after such worldly aspirations, such things that wont last. that perhaps, this path isnt mine to tread; that without God's consent, without God's nod, i wont be going anywhere. all i know, is that all of us have to start living for the right cause. the cause that truly lasts.
someone said today, that his dream was to get a great job, get a pretty wife and die young and rich. it made me squirm.
is that all there is to life?
getting old, getting rich, getting a family and dying.
it breaks my heart, when thats how narrow their vision is. many times, we wonder: what are we really living for? i found the answer when God came back into my life. i truly have. and i'm very sure that thats my purpose. and that question never comes to mind anymore.
ive found my answer in God alone. what about yours?
scratch the last entry.
i realised many things today. turns out i'm bursting my own bubble.
it sucks when everyone else is bringing visitors and youre not. alright let me rephrase that. it sucks when everyone else is trying their best to bring their visitors and youre not. it did cross my mind, but i pushed it away. and then i was reminded again on thursday, when seok called. it struck another raw nerve, but then again i dodged the spirit's calling. i only began to face the problem when you spoke to me about it. to remind me. i cant say its not my fault. i cant say, no i was too busy. yes i was busy. but then again, everyone is busy. all the time. so is God. but He never is too busy for us. for the seemingly trivial prayers, teeny requests for a seat on the bus or healing for a headache. what i can say, is that ive realised how wrong this whole thing has been.
i got too carried away with my own dreams, my own aspirations, those that i'd never gotten divine approval for. and for the past week, it has been all about me, me and more me. how could ive forgotten, that the kingdom comes first ? perhaps i hadnt forgotten, but i'd left it so far in the back of my head that it didnt seem so important anymore.
and then i thought of my promises during camp. the visions people told me about. today's sermon. and the prophecies. when God gives His promises, theyre considered done. i know it'll come true. if i dont do anything about it, it doesnt mean that it wont, only that it'll be delayed, that this task would be given to someone else to fulfill.
i dont know where the fire has gone, or whether it has truly been smothered. what i know, is that i shouldnt be so obssessed with going after such worldly aspirations, such things that wont last. that perhaps, this path isnt mine to tread; that without God's consent, without God's nod, i wont be going anywhere. all i know, is that all of us have to start living for the right cause. the cause that truly lasts.
someone said today, that his dream was to get a great job, get a pretty wife and die young and rich. it made me squirm.
is that all there is to life?
getting old, getting rich, getting a family and dying.
it breaks my heart, when thats how narrow their vision is. many times, we wonder: what are we really living for? i found the answer when God came back into my life. i truly have. and i'm very sure that thats my purpose. and that question never comes to mind anymore.
ive found my answer in God alone. what about yours?
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