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i managed to get a considerable amount of me& God time today, which i guess is probably a luxury i wont be able to afford when school starts. but then again, there's always Sunday. and poly orientations are.. slackish, to say the least.
i didnt really see the point of me getting pissed today, and i realise i wasnt even close to getting angry. (so i cant really call it a tiff, can i.) i must say i didnt see that outburst coming at all. whatever it is, i know that i did whatever was within my means to make time for you, and i apologized when i had to meet you later instead cuz of my sheep. i dont really understand why you got mad, and i'm convinced that ive tried my best to accomodate you and i'm not gonna apologize again cuz i dont feel sorry at all, and i wont pretend to feel something i dont. i dunno if you'll be even madder after seeing this, but thats as real as it gets. i dont think you'd like me to pretend either, anyway.
cycling at the park from chinese garden to lakeside today was an especially good experience, probably cuz i had the wind roaring in my ears instead of the usual secular music that i plug in all the time. i feel close to God cycling that way, somehow. (: figured out a lot of things with God while i was racing round the park, and i'm really refreshed, really glad for it. (and glad that i left my earphones at home.) i think my bike really needs a bell, though. and i need to devise a nifty way to bring my bible and notebook along when i cycle the next time. (i dont like carrying a bag.) doing quiet time in the park is simply wheehee.
today i realised how reclusive (and unfriendly) i am, and how tiny my comfort zone is. maybe one day i'll retire on a house atop a hill, away from civilisation and noisy/irritating people. HAHAHA.
i'm glad i actually like to write and communicate my thoughts through words. at least it brings some form of organisation into that cluttered incoherent mind that i have. i'm gonna get another blog to get myself back on track, before i really fade into obscurity. that blog wont have any audience this time ! its just God and me.
i'm not that enthused about school anymore. :/ meeting manymany new people in one place scares me. OKAY i'll remember what i taught at caregroup. grah.
BBALL please ? ):
i didnt really see the point of me getting pissed today, and i realise i wasnt even close to getting angry. (so i cant really call it a tiff, can i.) i must say i didnt see that outburst coming at all. whatever it is, i know that i did whatever was within my means to make time for you, and i apologized when i had to meet you later instead cuz of my sheep. i dont really understand why you got mad, and i'm convinced that ive tried my best to accomodate you and i'm not gonna apologize again cuz i dont feel sorry at all, and i wont pretend to feel something i dont. i dunno if you'll be even madder after seeing this, but thats as real as it gets. i dont think you'd like me to pretend either, anyway.
cycling at the park from chinese garden to lakeside today was an especially good experience, probably cuz i had the wind roaring in my ears instead of the usual secular music that i plug in all the time. i feel close to God cycling that way, somehow. (: figured out a lot of things with God while i was racing round the park, and i'm really refreshed, really glad for it. (and glad that i left my earphones at home.) i think my bike really needs a bell, though. and i need to devise a nifty way to bring my bible and notebook along when i cycle the next time. (i dont like carrying a bag.) doing quiet time in the park is simply wheehee.
today i realised how reclusive (and unfriendly) i am, and how tiny my comfort zone is. maybe one day i'll retire on a house atop a hill, away from civilisation and noisy/irritating people. HAHAHA.
i'm glad i actually like to write and communicate my thoughts through words. at least it brings some form of organisation into that cluttered incoherent mind that i have. i'm gonna get another blog to get myself back on track, before i really fade into obscurity. that blog wont have any audience this time ! its just God and me.
i'm not that enthused about school anymore. :/ meeting manymany new people in one place scares me. OKAY i'll remember what i taught at caregroup. grah.
BBALL please ? ):
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