halleluujaaaahhhh

Somehow everything's gonna fall
Right in
To place
If we only had a way
To make it all
Fall faster everyday

esutera is estella in jap. (:

totally new blog. i wanted to start things anew, i guess. deleted an old blog after reading some of the posts (for the last time) and felt quite good about it, since it contained so many emo posts from the me that was pessimistic, vulgar and ungrateful.

i admit i still can be a little of all of that sometimes, but i'm trying my best. (: thank God for God, though. and for the little reminders that come in the strangest ways.

i'm still considering if i should make my blog public again, but its quite a tough decision to make (added to the fact that i am the most indecisive person i know) since ive been blogging so freely about my thoughts in this wonderfully cosy private space. dont know if i can handle the restrictions and.. nakedness of a public blog.

i think i screwed up worship at caregroup today. ): got yanming a little flustered too. should be less ambitious and play songs like here i am to worship next time, huh. but i hope it didnt affect their meeting God too much. that was exactly what i was afraid of. oh, well.

it was our first time at emelia's house ! had quite a lot of fun with them. and attendance today was the best so far ! only jinglei couldnt make it. really really glad. i'm really optimistic, for some reason. cant wait to see how God is gonna work. :D :D

school's starting in six days ! everytime i tell someone 'school's starting soon!' it doesnt feel real to me. i guess its only gonna sink in when school REALLY begins. i'm not really looking forward to orientation, guess i'm kinda satisfied without making new friends. (honestly, i dont even LIKE making new friends. its one of the things i'm really bad at.) but ah, i remember what i taught the caregroup today.

still worried about my timetable. its one of the few things thats been on my mind all week. okay imma worrywart, guilty as charged. just trust God, as always. (:

and, i didnt realise we're this close to completing until dewen mentioned it. I'M SO EXCITEDDDDDDDD. okay i should be more composed than that. (ahem*) gotta be practical, too. bottomline is still, work hard ! and trust God, in all circumstances.

more than a song « says:
LOL anorexic la !
anorexic ppl are dumb

- ٭ я℮ğµℓα٭ ﮐ - says:
lol
say until like that

more than a song « says:
but its true. :/

- ٭ я℮ğµℓα٭ ﮐ - says:
later ur first sem, some anorexic nut own u

more than a song « says:
LOL. i'll be so pissed off !
aiya. but thats a sad life
they find their self worth in strange things

- ٭ я℮ğµℓα٭ ﮐ - says:
hahaha where do you find your self worth in then?

more than a song « says:
hmm. i dont find it in results or in looks, for that matter
it isnt something that has to be found what.

- ٭ я℮ğµℓα٭ ﮐ - says:
expected, chim answer from nowhere =/

more than a song « says:
LOL whatttt
its true what.
wht about you, then ? (:

- ٭ я℮ğµℓα٭ ﮐ - says:
self worth huh
i dunno?

do you ?