plastic hearts.

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finally received some God-given inspiration for the essay competition. [: still thinking about how to start it though.

been corresponding with emily's uncle about piloting cuz he's a first officer with SIA. its really exciting, talking to someone who's already in the job. thanks so much emily ! i'm so glad God gave me the courage to ask. and that emily remembered to get his email for me ! [:

sometimes, taking a tiny step can prove to be more rewarding than one would expect. its just the struggle between deciding if you should do it or not. which is rather foolish, since there's usually nothing at stake anyway. i'm glad i took that step, and hopefully it made the difference i wanted it to, no matter the magnitude. even a little tug at the knot helps, i guess.

i dont get why you get that disapproving, impatient-to-get-the-conversation-over-and-done-with look on your face whenever i bring it up. perhaps i shouldve seen this coming. i thought it wouldnt, but it stings. i guess you'll find that i'll never be the person you want me to be.

i know you did this to nudge me into action. but what? please tell.

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everything's changing. or rather, everyone is.

or maybe nothing has. perhaps its just me slipping those rose-tinted glasses off and taking a good look at the real world for the first time.

i dont like how this is going.