found love beyond all reason

ive been really unhappy with myself lately.

i get frustrated when things dont get done quickly and well, or rather, when loose ends are left untied. and i guess i'm inclined to pressurize people about it too. i wouldnt say i'm sorry for being that way, but i'd like to apologize cuz i know ive given you alot of pressure unwittingly by asking those questions which i felt were rather important. maybe i should work on finding the answers too, instead of being the one who's always asking the questions.

today's sermon didnt speak to me, it practically yelled in my face. i should really stop giving myself excuses.

there's no reason to complain, i just gotta work harder. and rely more on God, cuz its really not about me.

its the first time i'm feeling stressed over such stuff. should that be worrying ? i dont like this feeling.