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When I first got home, I just wanted to get myself clean, study busfund and go to sleep happy.

And then I read your blog, and the stuff I'd been postponing thinking about (over and over) just came back right in my face.

I think about how I spend my time, and sometimes I just wanna scoff in my own face. I spend so much time in school, when most of the time is spent wasting life and killing time before the next lesson and stuff to that effect and I HATE it. I loathe sitting around with nothing to do, when I could be doing a million other things that I'd rather do, like spend time with people whom I havent seen for a long time. And sometimes as we sit around and talk about all the things we've talked about before, I just get upset, cuz time really isnt something I like to waste, especially cuz I feel like Ive got so little of it but so many things I want to do.

Its like, I'm so busy in school doing nothing, to the extent that I dont even have time for my best friend.

What kind of lame life is that.

I mean yeah, I have time for ministry and I dont regret making time for it and its very fulfilling, and I dont think it wastes my time or effort in any way cuz I know I'm investing in the only things that will ever last forever, but school ?

I could find tons of reasons to say that I dont give a crap about school, and I guess everyone else could say the same. But I know why I hold on, cuz I know God has a greater plan for me though it may not be the easiest one.

Sigh. Just grit your teeth and hang in there, dumbass.

Lost the mood to blog. Bye.